It was time to take a small time-out after the World Cup and a tough spring with a lots of traveling and racing. I faced my limits in the chasing start and had to quit the race. Still, somehow I’m proud that I was smart enough to listen to my body and it’s signals before it was too late.
I’m really satisfied with the first period of this season. I managed to qualify to the World Championships, I was the fastest on my leg at 10Mila, won the Huippuliiga elite cup in Finland and got a gold medal at Finnish Championships middle distance. I mean, after the motivation problems I had last autumn and winter, I really have to appreciate these results.
I’ve been struggling with some big questions. Am I aloud to live this kind of privileged life? What is the point of my career when everything is going wrong? I still haven’t found all the answers, but step by step I’m trusting myself more and more as an athlete. The good thing is that besides orienteering, I’ve had also some other stuff going on during this spring. My career will probably continue even after this season, but I think that the best solution for me is to find something else to do as well.
Now when my energy and motivation is on a different level, it has been a relief to see that I’m still in the game. If you saw my interview after my performance at Huippuliiga in Nousiainen, you might have felt some of the feelings that I have felt inside me. My tears was a sign of gratitude and joy and pictured the fight I have had against myself.
The second part of this season started with a WOC pre-camp in Estonia and the last month before WOC is about the basics. The life is a rollercoaster, but everything is easier when you know what you want. The Phoenix bird reborns and rises from the ashes. We’ll see in what that will result at this time.
(Translated from original text)